Sometimes I feel as though I'm not good enough for writing.
Then again, I go back to what I heard Lori Wilde say in one of her lessons on Ed2go.com.
To pretty much sum it up, she said it's not all about talent, you've gotta have commitment and drive.
I love to write, there's no question about that!
But, last night as I was laying my head down to sleep, I wondered, What if this never happens and I'm wasting my time?
I had that gut-kicking, sinking feeling inside the pit of my stomach.
No! I thought. I refuse to believe that! I love this way too much for it to be a hobby!
Is that determination coming out? Or is that stubbornness?
I mean...what if I'm never published?
There's some GREAT books out there! That's my cometition! Those books are also, ironically, my text books, my lessons and research.
What if my writing is too stale?
What if it's never going to improve no matter how much I try to make it better?
I read a book lately by Danielle Steele, okay, so I read like the first chapter before I threw it into the yardsale stuff.
I coudln't stand her first 30 or more pages. It was all boring backstory..and I mean BORING backstory, and I never could get out of the annoyed attitude.
Mark one book down for the 'no' list.
What if my writing is that boring?
I only picked up the book cause I like DS and I liked the cover and blurb....
What if that's as far as my story goes?
No one is going to pick up a book by some random person and read something after the first few pages that is too boring!
Nevermind the public for heavens sake! What about an agent?!
I'm so frustrated.
But there's one thing for sure...
These feelings will NEVER keep me from writing.