I've read several good posts today about the waiting and listening process we writers must encounter in order to have conflicts solved, spend time with our Savior and learn about ourselves.
I have lately been writing in the early hours of the day.
Well, this week, we're doing VBS from 6-9pm. which means we get back to our house at about 10pm. No baths for the kids or nighttime routines have been done by 10 PM!!!!
Yesterday morning, I prayed as usual to receive guidance from God on what to write and where to take my story, but when I sat down to the computer, half-blank screen staring at me, blinking cursor mocking me, I just sat there, and did nothing.
I had 30 minutes alone in front of that computer, and nothing came out. I just stared at it, unable to do anything, blank. Nothing. Zilch, Nada.
I could have been frustrated, but instead, I picked up my VBS book and studied my lesson.
I'm co-teaching the youth this year, which is where my heart is, but I don't usually teach, I'm not comfortable teaching that age group. I suppose I'm used to teaching 3yr olds, and 3yr olds are so animated when they listen to stories, youth just kinda...stare at you.
However, despite recent crappy teaching sessions, where the only thing anyone ever learned was that I'm a terrible youth teacher, I taught a class yesterday...and LOVED it!
I was more animated with them, and held onto my thoughts, kept pushing toward the mark, and I know yesterday morning when I couldn't write a sinlge word on that computer, God was beckoning me toward that lesson.
The extra time I had preparing for it, and preparing MYSELF for it by focusing and BEING with God is what focused me on LETTING God teach that lesson through me.
I believe I'm entering a time of silence in my writing, at least for this week while VBS insues. After this, I look forward to spending that 5am hour on writing...and I know God's gonna give it to me, cause when He wasn't there, N-O-T-H-I-N-G.
This time of Him not breathing through me shows me that He's really there when something is left on the screen after 60 minutes pass.
Please pray for our VBS this week, and pray that through us someone will see Christ.
What are your prayer requests for this week?