We all love our characters.
We wouldn't write about them if we didn't.
I love the one I'm working with now.
But I just recieved confirmation from God on how this little short speck of life will go that I'm capturing on the page.
It hurts me worse knowing what's to come.
It hurts knowing what the readers will have to feel as they read her story, cause they're going to feel exactly what I felt today as I cried, shaking my head, not wanting to do it (God will lead me).
And when they cry, so will I.
Now, stop for a moment.
Immerse yourself in your current issue right now.
God feels the same way about YOU! God feels the same way about you!
He's been there. He's already seen it.
He's gonna cry right along with you, just as He did with me (and does whenever I hurt).
He knows what you're going to feel. He's felt it already in the foreknowing of what's to come. He saw it on the screen, and He'll face it again when He sees it live ("...right by your siiiiiiiiiide..." -Mathew West).
As much as this stuff hurts, God knows exactly what you're going through.
He already knows you're suffering. Take it to Him and lay it down at His feet so He can finally comfort you.
I kind of understand now. I know that right now, in this moment of my life, I'm supposed to write what hurts so people can know it's real and that they can know where to go.
(excuse me while I rejoice in sorrow)
How about you?
Tell me what your purpose is right now, and what you feel God's leading you to do.