Disappointment

When we hear news that breaks our hearts, where do we turn?

Sunday night, I wanted to turn to anger.
What would that have solved?

Nothing, in fact, it would have created many more problems, like a law suit for starters.

However, now that I'm in a position of authrity, I had to seriously reconsider my feelings.

I began to realize, this person is no different than me.
I was once in their shoes.

What right do I have to judge?
I've been forgiven of each and every sin in my past, they can be too.
Especially by me who should understand more than anyone.

So I turned to love.  Not my love, but Christ's love.

How did the people I disappoint feel so many years ago when I wound up in those same shoes?
Probably the same as I do now.
But they too showed me love.

I was so at home with my church family, after feeling their love and acceptance, I was able to move on.
However, at the slightest judgement, I wanted to run.  Far and fast.

But they didn't judge me.  They loved me.

When someone disappoints us, our first reaction may be to get angry, it may be to take them by the shoulders and pin them against the wall and say, "Look at me!! Look at where I was!   DO NOT GO THERE!!!!"
But by the love and compassion we've been shown by the One who created us, we realize we are, by the grace of that Creator, not in the same shoes, and thus, the love overflows...
and in some ways, when the love overflows, the feelings of pain and hurt become worse.

We're vulnerable again.

Once we've been burned, we want to close it off, and then what happens when we open up again?
Disappointment.


But then I looked at their life.
It's falling apart.
They're grasping at whever makes sense right now.
And right now...
it's what could really hurt them.

I ache for them right now.
But I'm just a leader in their church.
I'm not the parent...and if I was, you'd bet they'd be pinned...

But I'm not.
I've still got my little boys to think about.
I've still got my family who needs me to be all I can be and not dwell on this.

So now I can only hope.

WHAT?!!!
THATS IT??!!!!

THATS ALL I GOT?!

Surely with the relationship we've had, with the authority I've got....

No.
That's it.

BULL!!!!

Sorry, Kel.  Nothing you can do.


YOU'RE WRONG!

Sorry.

I'm going to DO something.
I'm going to be on my FACE for her...and ask God what to TALK about with her...
SHE. CAN. SILL. BE. RESCUED.

I DONT BELIEVE YOU.
THIS STUPID POLICITALLY CORRECT VOICE IN MY HEAD...
I'm going to do all I can for the people I love...and she's one of them.

Q4u:
In a situation that involved someone else...did you do what you could or did you look away?

Prayer Requests

Last night at church, I sat and listened to all the requests we had from our small group of believers.
There were SO many!

We live in such a broken world!  A child of 3 has leukemia, her 6 year old sister is scared to death.  A really sweet lady is in the hospital...  The list could go on...for HOURS!  There are so many things to be praying for!

But I wonder:
As desperate as we are for God to heal and fix...what are you THANKFUL for?

God's Workmanship

“For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.”- Ephesians 2:10 (biblegateway.com daily bible verse)


I've said before that I'm afraid of writing this WIP.  I'm not now!

I may feel that way again, but I know what verse to look up!

What about you?
What is your "get-up-and-go-give-me-gumption" push right now?

Welcome Back

I'm so happy to be back here :)

I missed reading everyone's blogs, posting my own, and especially commenting on other's posts and communicating.

The two weeks of too-busy are oh-oh over.  We had a great time in VBS and one young girl got saved and ONE OF THE YOUTH GOT SAVED!!!!

We just went to his baptism (at the river-okay, that was cool) on Sunday!
I'm so proud of him!
God is GOOD!

*sigh*


Softball is aaaaalmost over, please be praying for our safety in the tournament starting Thursday.

So, family, how was your two weeks?
What have I missed?
What's going on in your lives?
It's going to take me a looooong time to catch up on blog posts :( 
So expect some late-coming comments =D

*hugs*

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